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| warm weather=more motivation
i love the spring time in Massachusetts, we go through about 6 months of crappy weather just for this. it's really hitting me now that i need to slim down because i only have a month left of school.
unfortunately, i think i have to change my easter goal from 103 to 105 cause i didn't realize it was so soon, im 110 right now, blaahh, im off to comment you girls, leave love!
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| two days of fasting and i didn't loose a pound.
don't give up, i won't give up. i NEED this
I want to be beautiful;
Make you stand in awe
Look inside my heart,
and be amazed
I want to hear you say
Who I am is quite enough
Just want to be worthy of love
And beautiful
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| you know what, i don't care if i have supporters on here or not, i like being able to vent on here and look back on my life so i will continue to do so, for me. feel free to comment and i will comment back im just saying i don't NEED 50 comments to make me feel like someone is listening.
as of right now im 111. gross. i have a weight goal of 103 by easter (my favorite holiday!), thats about 2 pounds a week and i've been fasting everyday for the past 4 days i went from 114 to 111. i CAN and WILL do this. i want my old body back, the old me back.
sean, (my boyfriend of 3 years) is joining the navy. he's the only one i have here that keeps me sane, i have no friends around here, nothing. i know that when he leaves i'll be so depressed and i'll starve, which is good. and i'll be motivated to loose a lot of weight for the next time i see him. My sister got into a graduate school about 30 mins from my house, so if she goes there she will live at home with me again and our whole family will be back in the same house! :) i hope so, that way i won't be so lonely.
here's some old pics of me, i know i post them a lot but its the best motivation to actually see what i looked like at 97 pounds. my ultimate goal is around 85. let's do this.
i actually remember posting this picture and complaining about my thighs, what i would give for this body again.
i should be back to 97 by the middle/end of april. i'm determined this time. btw, i was 97 two summers ago, the lowest i've been since then is 102
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| okay so i don't know if it's because i havent been on for a while or because the girls i used to talk to don't use xanga anymore but i have like 70 footprints and like no comments. i thought xanga was about support but apparently not, i might delete this, unless you girls give me some support and show me you're still here. i used to love xanga, it was the only place i could really talk about my eating disorder and get support and love and know im not alone. if you guys are still out there, please let me know, cause i dont really want to let this go...
me now, im like 112, cow
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| im baaaaaaacksorry i've been so busy lately. im ready to get back to my old ana self, i've really let myself go. i've gotten up to 112, my goal is 103 by easter. now that it's march im ready to lose all of this stupid weight, and i missed you girls, let me know how you've been, i know its been a while but i'll be updating often i promise!  me last summer-104 ishh | | |
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